even if i was cold 24-7. even if everyone else thought it was disgusting. even if i fit the criteria for severely anorexic. even if the world didn’t see what i saw. I MISS IT. i miss it oh so much. b/c for the first time.. at only 86 pounds.. i was happy with my body.
b/c it definitely didn’t like the 1/4 cup of plain rice i just put in it.
you never feel good enough
so true… you’re always thinking about things you shouldn’t have eaten, the exercises that were never enough, the number of calories in everything you eat, and the fact that you’re never thin enough.
other food consumption for today:
-grilled tilapia filet
i know this doesn’t seem like much…. but its so much more than i normally eat. FML. why am i always so scared of eating like a normal human being?